Joseph Ronald Jardino.

He is my brother.
he is also my hero.
i look up to him in every way.
there is something things about him that make me
wish i was just like him.
i cant say how much respect i have for him.
he has already done so much and he is only 19 years of age.
-has 23k in the bank.
-pharmacy school, plus college.
-none selfish.
-helps out our family.
- graduated high school with a 3.75
- and so many more things.
i wish i could show him how much he means to me.
i couldnt have asked for a better brother.

Expect the worst hope for the best

it says it all,

this is how im going to live
my life from here on out.

My Why's,

Why is there a tide when the moon is in the sky,
why does your body hurt when your heart broken.
why do you have the sense of smell.
why do we see color.
why do we feel pain.
why do we get dajavu.
why do people write down what they feel.
why is there hate.
why do animals look so different.
why cant people be lonely.
why do we talk the way we do.
why is our raise getting smarter and smarter.
why are there different skin tones and eye colors.
why are people rude.
why are people selfish.
why do our finger tips get cold.
why are there seasons.
why do we have to eat.
why does water have no taste.
why do we fall in love.
why is there jealousy.
why is there disability's.
why is no body perfect.
why is there money.
why are there labels.
why is there fear.
why do animals have personality's.
why is there death.
why is there cancer.
why do girls go for the badboys when they know its going to end badly.
why is there friendships.
why did god make humans.

The days come and go,

so you know those days that you pretty much do nothing, but then at the same time you did everything. those days that seem to go by really slow, but when you look back it went by so fast. personally i love these days. when im on my drive home and im thinking back at it and just laugh at all the stupid stuff me and my friends do. like dressing up like a all time Original Gangster and walking through public places, and walking with a swagg just to see the faces we get by people. and making a bucket list with my bestfriend of everything that we have to do before 2011. these are they days that im happy where i am.

The day that kills,

With all my honestly i thought  this day would mean nothing to me, i didnt think twice about it till i looked at the date. it brought back all my old memories of him. this was the day from one year ago that i felt like nothing could touch me. i couldnt stop smiling at work i couldnt have been in a better mood. this was the day that i could tell him that i loved him and honestly mean it with all my heart. he was my world. and my everything. ever time me and my bestfriend sydney have talks bout the men that i we once loved i shrug him off like he means nothing. but last night when i was at sydneys and i looked at my phone and saw that it said "Nov 7th" this was the only thing i could think about. i thought that i was completely over this boy, but after remembering that nigh exactly a year ago. i have never felt so broke.